indecision

I did it as a challenge to myself, just to prove to myself that I can. But now there is something inside me walking around banging its head against the wall wondering if this was a good idea to begin with. I know that you can never know if you made the best decision unless you are lucky enough to try all the alternates, and that life doesn't usually hand you that.

The past is gone and at this time I really don't care if what I did was the best, I want to know what to do now. Do I go on? I am not one of those people to carry on with something just because I started it. If I continue I want to know that its because I wanted to go on. I have no problem stopping where I am, I just don't want to regret it later ...